Want to be a better girl, for you...

Name: Zhuo

Sign: (Smart, indenpendent and free spirited) Aquarius

Hobby: Shopping, Karaoki singing, dancing, camping, BBQing

Collections: Jewelry, eye shadow, cartoon pictures, cool girlfriends

Attractiveness: too many to list ^_^

Weakness: not good with kids or animal, can never pass 50-meter dash test in PE class

Favorite food: Beef jerky, almost any type of fruits

Favorite fashion brand: Calvin Klein, Bebe, Aldo...

Dream: Make a TV program talking about different cultures while travelling around the world

Thursday, September 18, 2008

在公司自我介绍的问题及答案

四月份我被抽到签回答一些介绍个人基本情况的问题以便同事们更加了解我。以下是问题及答案,我想这样读者也有机会多了解我一些了。

How long have you been in Biostatistics?

Surprisingly, one year and half already--times flies!

What areas/projects are you currently working on?

100% Cardiovascular surgery. The friendly surgeons even invited me to watch a couple of their heart surgeries "so I can understand the projects better"! It was a very special experience.

What do you like best about working in Biostatistics?

Education opportunities, cooperative environment, flexible work schedule, and the fact that those world-famous surgeons (who don't know statistics) think I am really smart! :D

What did you do before starting work at the clinic?

I was doing my master program in biostatistics in University of Utah. I taught some basic SAS courses and worked with a group of people on research about car crash accidents in Utah.

Tell us about your family:

I am the only child of my family. My mom always hopes to achieve something great in her life but didn't have the opportunity. Now she thinks the burden is on my shoulders--that is why she sent me to continue my education in USA and then work in Mayo. She is very proud of me but I don't know whether she sometimes regrets insisting that I come to USA because she can only see me once a year now.

What are your hobbies/interests?

Life time hobbies/interests: snacking, shopping, karaoke singing, ballroom dancing, traveling, camping, exploring new life style

Periodic hobbies/interests (the ones that switch back and forth between being my interests and my headaches ^_^): piano, yoga, work

Tell us something interesting about yourself that might surprise people:

I always wanted to be one of the tour guides, those who travel around the world, taste all type of weird but delicious food and learn about cultures that are different from their own. I went to school in South Dakota for one year and half. The natural sceneries are very beautiful and my classes were easy. So I was able to videotape some places I traveled and later on put all the episodes together with music and monologue added. I turned it into my own little TV program talking about South Dakota. A long time after that, the first thing I did when a friend came to visit me was to force them to watch my "TV program":) I still dream of making a TV program recording my world traveling experience and feelings about different cultures. I hope I will be able to do this after I retire with tons of money! :)

What is your favorite vacation/childhood memory?

I am a happy person and have lots of happy memories. The time I like best is my college years, because that was when I first started to live with other same aged girls and get to know what other people think and what their life is like. It also allowed me to make some of my own decisions--I didn't have to tell my mom who I went out with and when I would come home:)

Tell us about a funny/embarrassing moment on the job:

My mentor David Hodge went to most of my meetings with me during the first half year after I started to work here. Once we were coming out of St Mary's hospital with me leading the way. I was a little absent-minded and thought the door was the kind that opens automatically when sensing people coming. So I approached it slowly and then (since it didn't open) stopped in front of it waiting for it to "see" me. Dave was such a gentleman, he must have thought that I was waiting for somebody to open the door, so he stepped up (from behind me) and opened the door for me. I thought I was rude and was so embarrassed at that moment. But I guess he didn't even notice that I didn't mean to act like that :D

Monday, September 15, 2008

军训始末

眼看着明州著名的冬天又要来了,我决定忆苦思甜,用自认为历经过的最艰苦的生活挑战--大学军训来勉励自己。

那是大一夏天,我脱离妈咪的庇护伞和其他7个同被号称为“小太阳”的独生子女(或家里老幺)朝夕相处却相对独立生活已经整整一年。(当然我并没有飞出如来神掌,妈咪在我上学第一周内便给我配备了当时还算挺奢侈的摩托罗拉一款外形相当小巧的传呼机,以便对我随传随到。)领到军服的那天晚上寝室的小妞们在一片欢呼雀跃声中试穿,改制--因为最小号对我们来说都很大。(最后不明白怎么的大家就注意到我缝的裤脚,是模仿小时候看见的姥姥缝被子的手法,每一针涵盖2厘米长的裤边,于是变成了我在她们心中和嘴里永远洗刷不掉的笑柄。)

我们对军训的期待嘎然而止于来接我们去训练营地的军车--我们像小猪一样被密密麻麻塞进被顶篷遮得不见天日的后车厢里,在夏日炎炎的正当午向一个陌生的方向行进3、4个小时。起初我和大家一起大声唱着流行歌曲排遣身心的不悦,直到头晕目眩耳鸣恶心一起涌上来--我的低血糖在极度缺氧的情况下症状尽显。我艰难的挤着蹲下(大家都是挤成一团站着),脸旁边尽是身贴身腿贴腿的黑暗丛林,偶尔一丝车尾的光线穿过重重叠叠的军裤透进来。我很不争气的流泪了,那是个让我终生难忘的难受的几个小时。

前3天感觉像3个月:很难吃的饭菜, 而且在饥肠辘辘精疲力尽的时候为吃到还得大声唱歌;很潮湿阴暗的房间,记忆中就一盏30瓦的小灯泡还9点就熄灯;水管中流出很细很小的水,用来洗脸洗衣接水洗澡。任何事情都有时间限制,所以不光和自然条件斗,还得和同学争抢(比如说水管)。我不善于竞争,于是自叹晦气的比能干的女同学少洗几次澡。:P

体能训练对我来说不是特别难,一者我对动作的领悟能力强,二者班长们(我们的教官)对“男女授受不清”的古话领会得颇深,他们很少对女生实行体罚,甚至拘谨得近于迂腐。比如说他们绝不接触我们的身体纠正我们的动作,最接近的一次是隔着我同学的手表把她举得过高的手臂往下按了按。(相比之下男生就有被教官骂了脏话并且拳脚相加的)。

最让我想起来就后怕的是每天站军姿:不许说话不许动还不许四处看,简直就是尝试把人炼成一段死木头!幸好两天以后我因为是校广播站播音员被“调度”到军营广播站,在每天我的同胞兄弟姐妹站军姿的时候坐在条件相对良好的播音室里继续我的“本职工作”,使大家在身体备受折磨的时候保持丰富的“精神世界”。

也是在那里我认识了亢大哥。还依稀记得第一次进到军营播音室,烟雾缭绕中几个打着赤膊的男人在抽烟打牌。其中一个见我进门,一边问明来由一边四处找褂子往身上披--只是高大魁梧的身材已经显露无遗。后来我和宋皓(我的播音搭档)与他每夕相处,得知他叫亢鸿志,由于受过相对良好的教育,会修理电器,一直掌管宣传部的电子设施。他五官俊秀,神色温柔但刚毅,可惜眼神中经常透露出一种淡淡的忧伤。后来他把他老是挂在坚实胸膛前的那枚用子弹头做成的十字架项链送给了我。项链现在已经不知放在哪里了,只留下记忆中坚实的胸膛。

我想我能够理解亢大哥心里的忧伤--每个人都会向往绿色军营外五彩斑斓的世界。军训进行了一大半的时候下了几天雨,于是不能出外练习,全连只能坐在大会议厅里学唱军歌。那时候觉着每首歌词都特别感人,尤其是那些涉及到“妈妈”、“家”之类的话,唱着唱着全连的女孩子们有一半以上都抽抽哒哒哭起来了,连带着几个小班长也偷偷抹眼泪,弄得连长很是手足无措。

本以为离开的时候会无比开心,谁知道这群娇生惯养的小妞们都泣不成声。亢大哥和班长们一起出现在送别的场地。与他挥手告别的时候,心里无法逃避的直觉告诉我,今后的生活也许不会再有交集了。只是希望他能按照自己的愿望去主宰后来的人生。

军训艰苦的21天很快被多姿多彩的校园生活冲淡了,由于自己总不愿再重温那段日子而刻意遗忘了所有的证据,如军服,日记,照片. 现在想起那种被强迫的艰苦锻炼来却也没有后悔的意思,那段时间毕竟是我人生最美好四年的一部分, 并且走过来以后我可以做轻松状地说: 我也军训过! :)

Monday, September 8, 2008

追逐自己尾巴的小动物

感觉有时工作中的我像是追逐自己尾巴的小动物,费劲却是徒劳。

苏瑞医生又翻出一年以前每个人都为之历尽艰辛却最终被他遗忘的那个研究课题,要求大家四处补充数据,然后又要求我一遍遍按照他的“理想”修改。最终还是不尽他意,真是应了一句老话:不是你的求不来啊。只是可怜了我为这个烂摊子没少花时间和心思,怀疑最近额头上又爆发的豆豆也与此案有些关联。

天突然就变凉了。去年明尼苏达冰天雪地,我成天冻得流鼻涕的情景清晰得仿佛就在昨天。我花枝招展的裙子们还没轮上穿一遍就又要被收起来了。:(

Friday, September 5, 2008

懒惰还是超脱?

前一阵子总懒懒的提不起精神,情绪很容易陷入一阵阵低谷。觉得生命中没有一种美好得一塌糊涂的憧憬让我想不顾一切的去争取。想生活得随心所欲了无牵挂, 然而又有那么多按照生活轨迹本应该已经完成的任务,比如说申请绿卡,买房,结婚生小孩儿……是我太懒惰,还是太“超脱”了?

这两周忙的乱糟糟却也忘了"烦恼", 下班后居然提起劲头重新安排了一下我的蜗居办公室, 虽然在别人看来也许没有实质性变化, 但自己觉得好象工作的环境又焕然一新了! 有时侯自我感觉良好一下就是这么简单.:)

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

BSB的演唱会

一周前在明州的State Fair 上看了Back Street Boys (后街男孩)的演唱会,在座无虚席的几千人的露天音乐场中认识到自己是怎样的一个伪歌迷。

大学时曾一度听着他们的歌曲入睡,专辑也买过2,3张,没想到10年后的我会有机会混在一群狂热的粉丝中看他们的演唱会。环顾四周,真“迷”与我的区别在于:1.不惜精力把自己武装得醒目而又极具标志性,行头包括色泽靓丽的头巾,T恤,紧身裤或长袜,以及带上就看不见东西的怪墨镜;2.明明有座位却非要整场(2个小时)站着,随音乐不断摇摆并且以每半分钟一次的频率以超过80的高分贝持续尖叫;3.尽可能买他们的专辑,并且对每首歌的歌词张口即来。粉丝的年龄跨度极大,从10来岁到白发苍苍皆有。对以女性占绝对优势的观众,BSB一视同仁的通通进行色诱,比如说抛媚眼,送香吻,做脱衣服状等等……从粉丝的反应程度来看,这些老掉牙的大俗套居然还是非常奏效!

相比之下我非常惭愧的发现自己只听过现场演唱的一小半的歌曲,我甚至只能隐约认出其中两个人的面孔,而且他们的“帅呆”程度不是我心里一直记忆的那般(不会是我老了吧?!!). 不过看到了大学时候的偶像歌手还是非常令人兴奋的.:D