Want to be a better girl, for you...

Name: Zhuo

Sign: (Smart, indenpendent and free spirited) Aquarius

Hobby: Shopping, Karaoki singing, dancing, camping, BBQing

Collections: Jewelry, eye shadow, cartoon pictures, cool girlfriends

Attractiveness: too many to list ^_^

Weakness: not good with kids or animal, can never pass 50-meter dash test in PE class

Favorite food: Beef jerky, almost any type of fruits

Favorite fashion brand: Calvin Klein, Bebe, Aldo...

Dream: Make a TV program talking about different cultures while travelling around the world

Saturday, July 28, 2007

周末盐湖城第一站:去"填鸭"!

随着班机昨夜11点在盐湖城降落,我就开始了期盼已久的2007统计年会。这次盛大的会议在我研究生时代的大本营举行,可谓天赐良机,锦上添花。

虽然记事本上已经几乎被各样的聚会排得满满的,只恨自己分身乏术,整个周末还是会毫无保留的献给浩。他这次看起来比以前更瘦了,看来一个人在家就不好好吃饭的不止我一个。加上夏天日照的关系,他又黑了一圈,给人受尽苦难的感觉,让我心里有些难过。所幸的是上周走遍Rochester的大小商场,不惜重金为他买到的Chaco运动凉鞋好象给了他一丝惊喜,希望他是心里真的喜欢.很久没有买礼物让他惊喜了,其实这样小小的事情做起来容易,带给对方的甜蜜感觉确是难以衡量的.

两个人出门在外互相照顾是克服所有困难的动力源泉.决定了,等他从学校回来(周六浩总是得和老板开会,我回来的时候也不例外),我们就去喜欢的餐馆"填鸭"式的增肥!

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Greek food, drummer Matt is leaving

I just realized that I have two friends named Matt. To clarify things, this college boy, our summer intern, who is the drummer of his music band, will be called "drummer Matt" from now on.

Drummer Matt introduced me to some Greek food today in a place called "Mac's cafe". This choice was a result of him contemplating over my request of "some place fun", and it turned out to be a very good decision. (I like this about Matt, he always thinks carefully before gives me an answer to my question or "assignment"--well, at least so far).

I drew a blank in my head when I heard of Greek restaurant, because I had never been to one or read much about it in books. But I liked this place at the moment we stepped in. It has two big rooms, both were crowded, but we didn't have any trouble finding a spot. Tables were set close to each other so if you are a first-timer to Greek food like me, you can stretch your head and find out what is going on on your neighbors' plates:) The walls are busily and friendly decorated with pictures of Greek scenes (I guess), and the Athens Olympic symbols.

We both ordered their specialty--"Gyro" (a type of pita bread with lamb, beef and tomato). It came with a very cute presentation: wrapped in foil like a baby wrapped in a blanket. I am not a fan of lamb, but it didn't bother me at all. I was really impressed by myself!:) The "Gyro" was a lot of food for me for lunch, but maybe because I was carried by a happy mood, (and because Matt was still hungry I guess:D), we even decided to split a Greek desert, called "baklava", a type of flaky pastry with honey and nuts. I can't tell you how happy I was that we did that--it was HEAVENLY!

Just after I got back to my office, I received a notice that Matt's last day of intern is approaching as the summer holidays is going to be over soon... sadly.

As with Matt, my friendship with surgical residents and research fellows comes and goes in a fast fashion as the result of the nature of their short-term positions. I think I don't like this aspect about my job much, but fortunately I am a much stronger girl now.

Pioneer day

今天是Pioneer Day, 摩门教徒特有的节日,相当于犹他州的州庆日。

浩子打来电话说他和朋友正在去往 lake paul 钓鱼的路上 (车程需6个小时)。虽然他近段时间为了毕业论文几乎无时不刻没有焦头烂额,前两天还心情沮丧得险些提出分手,可是此时电话里听起来只有兴高采烈。可见钓鱼几乎是包医他百病的良药。人的一生有这样一种药是很幸运的。

Monday, July 23, 2007

孤独的世界顶端

张宇的一首歌词写道:“就算站在世界的顶端,身边没有人陪伴,又怎样……” 那样的落寞,是不是每个人都体会得到?很想念大学时代的闺中密友,和从前的“蓝颜知己”们,她(他)们过得好不好,会不会有时也想到我?

咏来信说她和先生分居了,现在正学钢琴派遣寂寞……她曾是美女纷纭的大学寝室里尤其艳丽的一个,如出水芙蓉,天真,脆弱而不设防。看到她有时在同学录上的感触颇深的留言,常在想是什么把她便成了一个哲人?

我们都成长了,成熟了,却也付出了代价。

失眠使我的生命延长了

这个本应该是从头到尾都激动人心的一周被今天早上七点的会搅得稍微有点不那么完美。因为这意味着我强迫自己从床上爬起来的时间需要比往常提前一个半小时。加上睡前不小心多喝了咖啡,算下来就睡了四个半小时。结果早上虽然象平常一样不想起床,却并没有面目狰狞,心情和精力都出奇的好,可见失眠的痛苦很多时候是自己强加给自己的。与其着急得想“完了,睡不着”,不如想“我清醒得时间增加了三个小时,我的生命在无形中被延长了”。这样说不定马上就带着愉快的心情竟如梦乡了:)

说到这周,本年度的统计会议已经正式进入倒计时了!

Saturday, July 21, 2007

放纵是生活的调味品

一觉醒来发现自己眼圈发黑,声音嘶哑,额上脓包猖獗,回忆起自己昨夜和朋友狂吃滥饮,穿梭于不同酒吧俱乐部狂疯到凌晨两点,正要有深深的悔意,浩打来了电话。他试探性的语气透露出一丝悔意和内疚--原来昨夜他也并非乖乖地待在家里准备毕业论文和答辩,而是在距离开车4个小时的犹他湖和彩虹赌场前后钓鱼和拍老虎机,通宵达旦不寝不眠。

其实每个人都有需要发泄的时刻。偶尔的放纵是生活的调味品,有助于身心健康,防止得内伤。(不过记得第二天要乖乖的做回那个你自己^_^)。

我的相簿

昨天把博客介绍给了公司两个要好的朋友,想到又多两个认识我的人无聊时有可能会来这里瞧瞧就有些丑媳妇终要见公婆似的心里发慌。头脑里小小的责任心告诫自己为了朋友的支持一定不可以继续倦怠下去。本来不在计划之内的相簿现在也公开与此,希望在笔耕不勤的日子里,朋友也可以感受到通过照片记录下来的我生活的一部分和瞬间的心情。

Thursday, July 19, 2007

结局

浩的博士毕业论文进入了黎明前的黑暗阶段。夜以继日的研究工作,找工作迟迟未果的压力和于我两地分居的痛苦使他变的少言寡语。最近几次交流都以我们对将来不确定性的无可奈何而失望地结束。

我们都感觉到彼此在一定程度上成了对方背不动却也放不下的包袱,它装负着爱情,责任,和在异国他乡不进则退,举步为艰的生存压力。我有时候想,我们也许在等待上天给我们指定一个结局,一个我们知道是什么却不忍心选择的结局。

随性就好

感觉最近这段时间英文写作有些黔驴技穷,一些难以名状,瞬间即逝的小心情总是因为苦于没有合适的英文表达渠道而不了了之。决定从现在起不拘泥于语言表达形式,文章只要有感而发,随性就好。

不管什么事情,刻意强求久了都有撑不住的时候。譬如我上健身班,半年以来一周4次几乎从未间断,被同事传为佳话,也被教练当作楷模逢人便夸奖说我进步迅猛。可是突然就想当逃兵了,觉得自己可以做一些不求上进但让自己觉得很惬意的事情,比如说懒懒的躺在沙发上看电视剧或时尚杂志,把零食当主食吃。古人说“张持有道”是有道理的。

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Changes and surpises in life

My AC was finally fixed by my landlord (at least seemingly so), but ever since then, the weather has stayed cool and thus I haven't had chance to enjoy the pleasure of having a functioning AC in my room this summer. Likewise with the umbrella, ever since I decided to put it in my handbag so I wouldn't get poured by sudden thunderstorm again, it has never rained at the time I get off work.

Life is full of changes and surprises that you are never able to predict, and it is the beauty of it.

Dr. Mennander, the handsomest nerd I know, sent me an email after getting back to his home country Finland, updating me with his current contact information. The lines are formal as usual, and what does that mean to me, I will never know. He said surgeons need to be emotionless in operation room, and calm at all time, maybe I will just need to get used to working with people like that.

Sub sandwitch lunch in park

Tuesday, our college intern, Matt, suggested that I go to lunch with him and his friends, who are also college students working as summer intern at Mayo Clinic. I was a little surprised but very much touched by his friendly invitation. I warned him that it takes me time to warm up with new people, and he assured me that his friends are all nice and would be happy to have me join them for lunch.

knowing that I am not a frequent visitor to sandwich stores, he stared at Quizno's (the place we were going) website for about half an hour and finally picked up the perfect lunch for me--one of their signature sub sandwiches "Mesquite Chicken with Bacon".

After meeting up in Quizno's and ordered our own lunch, we (Tim, Matt and me) went to the central park by Mayo building to enjoy the gourmet lunch. Matt and his friend are both really "sun shine" type of kids. Through their eyes, I see pure happiness and enthusiasm. We were sitting on a stone flower bed, where a big tree provided a generous piece of shade. My "sub" turned out to be very tasty, even though I had been talking with them all through lunch, I didn't have trouble finishing it before it got cold. The conversation between me and the young boys went well, my identity as a "new comer", my nationality, my age, or my fluent but formal English didn't stand in the way...they even told me that I am "more exciting than lots of American people"!:) (yeah!! It means a lot to know that I am not a "party pooper":D) The lunch was fun and I definitely look forward to the next time.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Hot pot dinner at Viva's

This couple of weeks have past fast with me busy eating around with friends. It was like a festival week when you are supposed to try out all kinds of special food.

It started with the "hot pot" dinner at Viva's apartment. Yes, it was the Sichuan hot pot that I am specialized in, but ever since I showed it to Viva, she got so badly addicted to it, that whenever she invites Friends over, she always treats them with the hot pot. Of course, she always giving me credit by making it clear that "it is Zhuo's recipe". As if the patent was registered by me and it is illegal to use it without mentioning the ownership.


After dinner, Viva's husband Matt and his friend Chad volunteered to entertain us by acting anything we girls name them to do, so Viva and her little niece, who is infatuated with Chad, gave out topics like "gay", , "monkey", "psychic"... I have to admire the guys for being willing to put themselves in some very silly and embarrassing roles, and maybe because of the effects of alcohol, I actually thought it was very funny--with Viva's home made coconut sticky rice cake in one hand and a glass of blackberry wine cooler in the other, I laughed till my facial muscle hurt. That night, I also tried "long island ice tea" and almost thought I could handle alcohol like other people, until I got home and found out I was red and burning like an oven from forehead all through stomach.